Countless little things
like stars that fill the night's vast ceiling
and change the parametres of feeling
just countless little things
but collected they are a constellation
a symphony of heaven's invention
and I treasure them in introspection
these countless little things
For AC
tiny oceans
Your eyes like tiny oceans keep
your soul beneath pools of colour deep
They gaze at me, my heart exposed
and see the depth to which this love goes
The jewels of your smile
are the stars of my night
they gently hint at feelings hid
that I desire to swim amid
And I'm by fascination lured
into a paradox observed
that complex thoughts and fears are held
where hope and wonder also dwell
For AC 19/09/09
your soul beneath pools of colour deep
They gaze at me, my heart exposed
and see the depth to which this love goes
The jewels of your smile
are the stars of my night
they gently hint at feelings hid
that I desire to swim amid
And I'm by fascination lured
into a paradox observed
that complex thoughts and fears are held
where hope and wonder also dwell
For AC 19/09/09
I
I will wrap around you
as you face affliction from all sides
as the storm surrounds you
against the pervasive tide
I will be your strength
when weakness is all you feel
when all about you is superficial, fake and empty
I'll be real
When you are tossed by changing fortune
I will be your sure foundation
against the dumbing down and cynical
I'll be revelation
And I will hold you
through the enveloping night
when you are choked and disillusioned
I'll be your fight
I will give and give without ever asking
except to ask that you receive
just acknowledge me and I'll breathe through you
Just believe
I've already won the battle
that wars within your soul
release to me your turmoil
and I will make you whole
as you face affliction from all sides
as the storm surrounds you
against the pervasive tide
I will be your strength
when weakness is all you feel
when all about you is superficial, fake and empty
I'll be real
When you are tossed by changing fortune
I will be your sure foundation
against the dumbing down and cynical
I'll be revelation
And I will hold you
through the enveloping night
when you are choked and disillusioned
I'll be your fight
I will give and give without ever asking
except to ask that you receive
just acknowledge me and I'll breathe through you
Just believe
I've already won the battle
that wars within your soul
release to me your turmoil
and I will make you whole
The Bottom Of Night
Here at the bottom of night -
A light!
The dawning of thought and morning
Here is my restlessness, my thoughts overflowing
resisting arrest, my impatience growing
Sleep taunts me, haunts me
But my heart weighs heavily upon by chest
I can feel it beating, thumping, breaking
For all that's before me but just beyond reach
and hidden in the conversations I'm faking
is a fear of my own making
This cosy blanket of inhibition
bravery displayed in the safest of places
Why can't I escape it after all this time?
Still sometimes it surfaces like this -
A momentary abyss
Here at the bottom of night, a fight.
A light!
The dawning of thought and morning
Here is my restlessness, my thoughts overflowing
resisting arrest, my impatience growing
Sleep taunts me, haunts me
But my heart weighs heavily upon by chest
I can feel it beating, thumping, breaking
For all that's before me but just beyond reach
and hidden in the conversations I'm faking
is a fear of my own making
This cosy blanket of inhibition
bravery displayed in the safest of places
Why can't I escape it after all this time?
Still sometimes it surfaces like this -
A momentary abyss
Here at the bottom of night, a fight.
She Is Life
She is life relentless
confident as a whisper never forced
hers is a smile like sunrise,
in its warmth to linger
as she burns within me
She is thoughtful and articulate
and rarely wrong
a whirlwind of possibility that I buy into
she is strong
She doesn’t need me
yet she chooses to need me
she is strong-willed but submissive,
stubborn, resolved
she believes in right and fair
and I believe in her
Careful in words,
she is expressive and kind
the finest friend I’ve ever known
the best friend I’ll ever want
She is pure though she might doubt it
gentle in demeanour
honest and sincere
And when she reaches out to me I hold her
like precious porcelain
her body shapes to mine
and steals my breath away
And she is here
and she is mine
pictures clear in a memory blurred
she is beautiful beyond these words
For AC May 09
confident as a whisper never forced
hers is a smile like sunrise,
in its warmth to linger
as she burns within me
She is thoughtful and articulate
and rarely wrong
a whirlwind of possibility that I buy into
she is strong
She doesn’t need me
yet she chooses to need me
she is strong-willed but submissive,
stubborn, resolved
she believes in right and fair
and I believe in her
Careful in words,
she is expressive and kind
the finest friend I’ve ever known
the best friend I’ll ever want
She is pure though she might doubt it
gentle in demeanour
honest and sincere
And when she reaches out to me I hold her
like precious porcelain
her body shapes to mine
and steals my breath away
And she is here
and she is mine
pictures clear in a memory blurred
she is beautiful beyond these words
For AC May 09
Sudden The Knowledge Of Love
She is radiant in surrender
her skin flushed with warm hues
Her smile disarms me in a moment-
eyes like oceans hide her thoughts through a thin veneer
While I - I am tossed by a tide of emotion
lost in that moment
as words of expression tumble down
an avalanche of feeling
inadequate yet profound
Is this connection?
At last soul searching's end?
The sweet taste of certainty
an irresistible blend
Is this the warmth of morning?
Of sunlight splashing through
-at last the shadow fading
the futility of loneliness and fear exposing
Summed up in a still
your hair spilled around your face
framed in blushing beauty
your eyes locked on mine
Sudden is the knowledge of love
where all reason is folly
awakened and untamed by time's dulling
youthful and pure
For AC Jan 09
her skin flushed with warm hues
Her smile disarms me in a moment-
eyes like oceans hide her thoughts through a thin veneer
While I - I am tossed by a tide of emotion
lost in that moment
as words of expression tumble down
an avalanche of feeling
inadequate yet profound
Is this connection?
At last soul searching's end?
The sweet taste of certainty
an irresistible blend
Is this the warmth of morning?
Of sunlight splashing through
-at last the shadow fading
the futility of loneliness and fear exposing
Summed up in a still
your hair spilled around your face
framed in blushing beauty
your eyes locked on mine
Sudden is the knowledge of love
where all reason is folly
awakened and untamed by time's dulling
youthful and pure
For AC Jan 09
the early morning hours
As I lie awake in the darkness
I wonder if you’re sleeping
time is distance between us
but you’re alive in the same moment as me
I wish that I could touch you
or just feel you next to me
your breathing body rise and fall
see your eyes closed as you sleep
your trusting shape
your skin washed with night
all fear drained away
In your embrace a feeling floods through me
that I can’t deny
Words overflow and consume me
but they can’t explain
I’d need a lifetime to prove that I love you
the way I say I do
And as you cling to me its not long enough
It’s not enough
How do I make my heart settle down?
and reign in my fear?
how do I miss you less or love you less;
just enough to breathe without you?
When in this moment I’m lost
I feel love’s control
and this simple beauty whose hope is in me
is so complex and hard to know
How do I protect you when I’m such a stranger to strength?
let go when I want to hold on?
How do I guard your love
When I’m captive to my own?
I have only trust
fragile, innocent trust
faith in you, that you’ll be there;
so I don’t have to do this alone
I wonder if you’re sleeping
time is distance between us
but you’re alive in the same moment as me
I wish that I could touch you
or just feel you next to me
your breathing body rise and fall
see your eyes closed as you sleep
your trusting shape
your skin washed with night
all fear drained away
In your embrace a feeling floods through me
that I can’t deny
Words overflow and consume me
but they can’t explain
I’d need a lifetime to prove that I love you
the way I say I do
And as you cling to me its not long enough
It’s not enough
How do I make my heart settle down?
and reign in my fear?
how do I miss you less or love you less;
just enough to breathe without you?
When in this moment I’m lost
I feel love’s control
and this simple beauty whose hope is in me
is so complex and hard to know
How do I protect you when I’m such a stranger to strength?
let go when I want to hold on?
How do I guard your love
When I’m captive to my own?
I have only trust
fragile, innocent trust
faith in you, that you’ll be there;
so I don’t have to do this alone
Morning Light
I miss you tonight
amid the lanterns of the night fishermen
as the old pier adorns a thousand orange lights, my memory ignites.
I walked along the seafront
with the stars clear above me
sucking in the warm air with the waves rolling gently.
In the last embers of the fire
I felt a distant draw
I was alone in a crowd with your ghost by my side.
I miss you and it feels so hard
but I know this is just a moment
I press the peddle to the floor, disorientating distance pulled toward.
You'll disappear to sleep
disappear to night
disappear to the forgiving of warm morning light.
amid the lanterns of the night fishermen
as the old pier adorns a thousand orange lights, my memory ignites.
I walked along the seafront
with the stars clear above me
sucking in the warm air with the waves rolling gently.
In the last embers of the fire
I felt a distant draw
I was alone in a crowd with your ghost by my side.
I miss you and it feels so hard
but I know this is just a moment
I press the peddle to the floor, disorientating distance pulled toward.
You'll disappear to sleep
disappear to night
disappear to the forgiving of warm morning light.
Of Stars
Of moonlight walking, fingers entwined
Of bright morning light
Of singing in the early hours
Of a smile and eyes that light up the world like stars
Of sunrise and sunset
Holding and holding on
Of hope and stillness and tenderness
Of touch
Of laughter and curiosity
Of spirit and freedom and feeling alive
Of watching you watching me
Of kisses and goodbyes
and hugs that won't let go
Of walking and talking and mysteries unfolding
Of life
Of looking forward
Of letters and growing
Of sharing and knowing
Of sweetness and longing,
passion and belonging
Of gazing upward
Of dancing
Of driving and songs
Of singing along
Of the way your hair smells, your skin feels
Of the way you see the world
Of the way you love God
Of getting closer, nearer
Of seeing you relate
Of the way others admire
the way you communicate
Of light and shade, quietness and noise
Of the way love returns to you
Of movement and grace, elegance and poise
Of manners and kindness,
gentleness and refinedness
Of compassion and care
Of selflessness
Of simple things
Of words that don't come
that don't need to be said
Of tears that I caused
and those that I shed
Of everything we gave and then gave away
Because...
Of bright morning light
Of singing in the early hours
Of a smile and eyes that light up the world like stars
Of sunrise and sunset
Holding and holding on
Of hope and stillness and tenderness
Of touch
Of laughter and curiosity
Of spirit and freedom and feeling alive
Of watching you watching me
Of kisses and goodbyes
and hugs that won't let go
Of walking and talking and mysteries unfolding
Of life
Of looking forward
Of letters and growing
Of sharing and knowing
Of sweetness and longing,
passion and belonging
Of gazing upward
Of dancing
Of driving and songs
Of singing along
Of the way your hair smells, your skin feels
Of the way you see the world
Of the way you love God
Of getting closer, nearer
Of seeing you relate
Of the way others admire
the way you communicate
Of light and shade, quietness and noise
Of the way love returns to you
Of movement and grace, elegance and poise
Of manners and kindness,
gentleness and refinedness
Of compassion and care
Of selflessness
Of simple things
Of words that don't come
that don't need to be said
Of tears that I caused
and those that I shed
Of everything we gave and then gave away
Because...
Fragile
Brilliant is the light you send
and open the arms you extend
stark are the choices you made
brave beyond the bitter end
Crazy the smile you wear
after all that you've had to bear
Fragile is the heart beneath
Fragile it's every beat
But precious the time we spend
on the other side of the end
little by little we steal
our dreams back to dream again
Bright is the distant sun
that will soon cover everyone
Fragile the voice that sings
Fragile it's melody
Slowly and slowly I wait
patience my impatience frustrates
however long the journey takes
its not a difficult decision to make
and open the arms you extend
stark are the choices you made
brave beyond the bitter end
Crazy the smile you wear
after all that you've had to bear
Fragile is the heart beneath
Fragile it's every beat
But precious the time we spend
on the other side of the end
little by little we steal
our dreams back to dream again
Bright is the distant sun
that will soon cover everyone
Fragile the voice that sings
Fragile it's melody
Slowly and slowly I wait
patience my impatience frustrates
however long the journey takes
its not a difficult decision to make
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